I have been thinking a lot recently... about what I do, what I want to do in future and how to do it.
Once I started being in front of the camera because I loved to dress up, take my horse to the forest with me (I have been riding until I was 18 years old) and let a friend take some photos. I had so much fun and got addicted to modeling - round about three years ago I checked out the site model-kartei.de and that was how it all started. Gothic, Burlesque and Fantasy were my favourite themes and I couldn't get enough of it :)
When I look at what I did lately I see many jobs that I had and I did lots of photos for others but not really for me. It's not that I regret anything I did - it was a lot of fun and I like the results but especially this latex-stuff isn't really what I am and what I want to be. I didn't have that many shoots with latex but I think that was enough for me. I felt so honoured when Asmondena asked me to be the "face" of Boombastic Rubber and when Danny from Amatoris Latex Couture said he would make somehing like a "La Esmeralda collection" because he liked my designs so much. So you will understand that this decision was hard for me because I like these people so much and didn't want to dissappoint them after we had these gorgeous plans^^ Also I just really like the look of latex and wearing it makes you always feel like a super hero :D
But well, I decided that I don't want to be a fetish model and get "back to my roots" - doing things for me, not for others (or for money^^) and doing these things because I love the theme.
My very first own latex outfit is this amazing body by Isabeau Ouvert and I also was just wearing this cute rococo-dress at the german fetish ball. I am really looking forward to shoot it - but not because it is latex but because it just looks so amazing. I hope you see what I mean when you see the results ;)
So I might be shooting outfits by Isabeau Ouvert every now and then but will stop shooting latex in general.
And well, some of you may know that I have another full-time job so it is hard to do this modeling stuff as a full-time job, too. Even if I love it so much I will step back in future. Not needing the money is a great thing but I think I forgot that in the past months - I had so many shoots that I didn't have the time to see my friends and family as often as I should. Sorry to you guys and thank you for understanding and supporting me! :-*
Thank you for reading this post that has gotten much longer than I had planned^^' Have a wonderful weekend everyone!
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